Emotions are weird. Strong highs and lows that are different. Trying to understand where I should stand. I think my year plan is good. Improve in all the ways I have learnt over the past week and a half; stop wearing baggy clothes buy fitted clothes, cleaning and showering more is good keep doing it, get into a routine hopefully. I did think about painting the bedroom and buying a new bed frame. So many roads, remember even if you take a turn God straightens the path ahead. I’m tired and ache but isn’t everyone? I would like more energy. I want more accountability. There’s a spiritual war going on over health systems and the court system. It’s a sad world but God is in control and has prepared us. People may ask where he is and I’m just like if this isn’t all proof that he choose to send his son to save is from all of that evil that I’m glad I know Jesus and everyone needs him. The world has tried to paint villains as just broken but no villains are evil. Evil exists but God is bigger and will get rid of all evil one day. We fail every day as humans to get rid of evil, we are the same race as the people who killed Jesus. But even that couldn’t defeat God because Jesus came back and he promised us he’d be back again. Now we wait on the mighty and just and true, our everything. All some people want is to sit with people and just listen to stories